[ it takes her a few minutes just to read it. she keeps losing track, tears welling up in eye after eye after eye and blurring her vision from a dozen different angles. but what he's trying to say is as clear as day.
it still takes her another thirty seconds to gather herself up enough to start typing. ]
i'm not a good person but thank you anyway. it means a lot that you think that.
[ she doesn't address large chunks of it. how could she? it's clear they're sensitive topics. he mentions his dad, and even though it's alien to her - the idea that the devil would just, hurt someone like that, and take them away instead of giving them everything they could be - she tries to listen. she tries to understand just what it is akira is going through. she's not any closer when she finishes, but at least she knows now. ]
maybe this is just another thing this place does. we're all from different worlds already, right? maybe demons are actually as bad as everyone says, where you're from maybe angels are the good things in life and devils are the bad. but that's what people say where i'm from, too. and plenty of good people do terrible, awful things. things i can't even think about.
is it really just demons that hurt people? are you sure people really change that much? did you change that much?
[ and she nearly leaves it at that. it's a lot to ask. but there's one last part she has to ask, because it's not right to leave off without it- ]
"stop stabbing yourself" i whisper softly
it still takes her another thirty seconds to gather herself up enough to start typing. ]
i'm not a good person
but thank you anyway.
it means a lot that you think that.
[ she doesn't address large chunks of it. how could she? it's clear they're sensitive topics. he mentions his dad, and even though it's alien to her - the idea that the devil would just, hurt someone like that, and take them away instead of giving them everything they could be - she tries to listen. she tries to understand just what it is akira is going through. she's not any closer when she finishes, but at least she knows now. ]
maybe this is just another thing this place does.
we're all from different worlds already, right?
maybe demons are actually as bad as everyone says, where you're from
maybe angels are the good things in life and devils are the bad.
but that's what people say where i'm from, too.
and plenty of good people do terrible, awful things.
things i can't even think about.
is it really just demons that hurt people?
are you sure people really change that much?
did you change that much?
[ and she nearly leaves it at that. it's a lot to ask. but there's one last part she has to ask, because it's not right to leave off without it- ]
is losing control something you worry about?
is it something i can help with?