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oh! hey kamala.
i'm doing okay. i think? it's kind of hard to tell.
i've basically been useless for the past few days. haha.

i don't really know if i need anything off the top of my head.
actually, that's a lie. i do know?
but i don't know if it's really right to say it.

Uh... well that's tough because I have no idea what you're talking about. I'm gonna go ahead and evoke the girl clause that states that as friends who happen to be ladies, we will share what we need without any judgement whatsoever! So you know. Go for it. I am turning my judginess off.

uhhh, ok. if you're sure?
then i guess i'm just looking for reassurance that i didn't make the biggest mistake of my life?
i could explain a bit more but it's kind of tmi. i don't really know how you feel on that.

Fine tbh? I mean usually no one at school even asks. They just scream tmi stuff at the top of their lungs down the hall so this will actually be a nice change!

oh. okay. i guess that's a good point?
well, if you're sure... uh. hm.
it's kind of weird so just hear me out?

so basically i have two girlfriends. i think i told you that?
or, well. i guess i had two.
neptune vanished right before all of this went down.
so me and jupiter were trying to deal with that, since like... neptune was there?
she was a part of us and we were a part of her. you know? it's hard to explain.
we were the worst girls since eve and nothing could change that, except something DID change it, and now neptune's gone and we're here alone.
and then all the music started?
urgh. that was so fucking bad.
like sorry for language? i don't know if that's a thing for you but.
wow. i never want to hear africa again.

[ ...where was she? oh, right. ]

anyway we sort of weren't thinking straight
and i guess the loneliness and terrible music and food problems just. sort of got to us?
and one thing led to another and we kind of. had sex i guess?
and that shouldn't really be a problem because, i mean. i love her a lot and we're a thing?
like even if we weren't also the devil it would be mostly okay i think.
but neptune wasn't there and now i just keep thinking about how awful i would feel if i came back and found out i'd been left out?
and then i feel kind of selfish and that just makes things worse.
so i guess that's what it all comes down to.

i don't really know what i was going to ask for here?
i guess just... like.

i didn't ruin anything, right?

Language is only a thing if I'm the one using it, but wow. I can see why you're all messed up about it!

Okay full disclosure: I've obviously never had sex. Everything I know comes from that horrible talk with my Ammi and what people shout at everyone during school which is yeah. TMI. So much TMI.

I don't think you ruined stuff. You guys are in love and if she were around, you'd totally include her, right? Just... explain to her what happened when you guys see her again and that you want it to still be the three of you. You know that it doesn't change how you guys feel about her! Stuff like that. Just make sure she knows how totally special and irreplaceable she is! When you see her because you totally will.

Don't feel bad, okay? It's pretty obvious you care a lot about her. It's not your fault someone messed with you two and stuff happened. I think it's great you guys.... loved each other? Instead of trying to kill each other like 90% of the others.

yeah. it's uh.
sort of a lot?
and i don't think you really have to have had.
sex to talk about i guess?
i mean i don't really feel. that much different or anything...

but
all of that helps a lot to hear.
like, a lot?
i was going to write a bunch of stuff to answer what you were saying but it got really tmi so i guess just.
what you said was right and it helps a lot to hear.

:)

I'm glad I helped. You're an awesome person who should feel awesome even when stuff gets weird and complicated. If anyone tells you otherwise, I'll punch them for you.

:)))))) >DDDDDDD <333333333333333

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thanks again. i'm glad we can talk like this, even with me being like. the devil and all? you're way cooler than most of the people i knew back home.

You're welcome and don't worry about it. I still maintain God will be cool with me not being a jerk to you or else He's not the creator I thought He was, etc etc. Thanks for using cool and me in the same sentence in a positive way.

[ that doesn't sound like the god she knows. but... maybe she doesn't need to say anything about that for now. after all, kamala's doing what she can on her own end. and who knows? maybe things are different from world to world. ]

haha. no problem :)
i mean, you ARE super cool?? so. there.
there aren't really many people i could be like
"hey, i totally went to"

okay i don't know how that was going to end but it was bad???
you know what i mean.
i don't know how many people i could talk to about this

LOL I do know what you mean. <3 tbh I'm still kind of stoked you feel comfortable sharing this stuff with me?? I want to be there for you like you were for me when you let me sit with you all that time ago. Wow. We've been here a while, huh?!

Point is you're cool too and always welcome to come to me with stuff.

aw. haha. that's really sweet, but also, totally not necessary?
like, that's just what friends do. are we friends? i think i've asked you that before.

you're always welcome to come to me too.
turns out the devil can actually listen and stuff?
which is probably not reassuring to a lot of people, but like. if it helps it helps

Maybe you did, but here's your written confirmation that we are friends. Maybe again? It's cool.

And I totally will since hey there's nothing wrong with venting! Things are just kind of quiet right now since we're on a winning streak. I'm totally proud of Team Creepy Space Station.

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holy shit this tag length; also cw for sex discussion i guess??

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