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[bu773rfly]

No it's probably exactly what you're thinking.

Hope I get to feel silly about thinking this could get very bad.

[wingstosee]

oh. i kind of figured?
what with how much it sucks.
and i hope you end up feeling silly but honestly i kind of think you won't?
even if things ended tomorrow some people have gotten really screwed up over this.

alucard's working on a cure at least.
so we have that.

[bu773rfly]

If it's anything like the

Never mind. I'm being pessimistic.

Are you a worrier, Venus? You act like you're not, or like you are but you just spite it all the time. I can't tell.

[wingstosee]

haha.
uh, i guess you could say i am? both of those things.
i get so upset and nervous thinking about everything, and that gets me mad?
like. why should i have to be the one worrying about it
so i force myself not to, and i get drunk, and then i do stupid things instead
which isn't good either but it's better maybe?

[bu773rfly]

It sounds miserable to me but I appreciate the thought process behind it.

I think, where I'm from, that would be considered a kind of running away. Obviously not a good thing. But people really don't....

Ordinarily the problems they have to solve in their life aren't like the problems we have here, for instance. Fighting on and never giving up only works up to a certain point. Past that point it just makes losing hurt more.

So I can't think badly of doing things to just get away from it. I think badly of myself when I do it, but not of other people. If you're a worrier and you can't fix everything, whatever. That's life.

[wingstosee]

i mean, it's probably running away.
but maybe that's okay too?
sometimes running away doesn't mean anything bad. it just means you can't handle something right then.
it's like you said. their problems aren't ours.
you know?

[bu773rfly]

Yeah.

It'd be nice to have a manual for dealing with situations like this, but until that happens, running away to somewhere we can catch our breath is better than nothing.

Lunch together? I need to stay on top of nutrients and calories if things are going to stay like this.

[wingstosee]

haha. it'd be nice to have a manual for basically anything?
like. i can't even look up how to not be a disaster here or how to tell when you're hallucinating.
it'd be nice to have SOMETHING.

but running away can be nice too.
let's get lunch. :)

[bu773rfly]

Ask someone to verify, and if there's nobody around then record whatever you're seeing or hearing and then send it to someone to verify. Or you could play it back yourself but I don't know if that works when you're actively hallucinating.

[wingstosee]

it probably works?
i think hallucinations don't like. get caught by video.
that makes sense right?

cameras don't pick up your brain waves or something right.

[bu773rfly]

They don't, but you could hallucinate the contents of the video when you're watching it? I've never had hallucinations in real time so I don't know whether that happens.

[wingstosee]

oh. oh shit
i didn't even think of that??
oh crap hold on

ok update: i think it works
my arm is still there on the video
so
we're good??